missed sumthg..?

salam...

hmm.cant find words. to write the blog..i guess its kinda hard if u feel u want to write sumthg but u really cant say it or write it... its like evrythg in ur brain is smashing into pieces..floating,and suddenly occured a very n utmost fiercing storm u ever seen,wit outloud lightning,very very strong winds....oo..wut a dramatic situation..n dats y probably be d reasons i skipped writing yesterday....*pull urself together salihin..d thgs i always said to myself when i'm in a great,deep shit,or in a great triumph..istighfar (sounds poyo,but,dats wut happened,..for u guys, feel free to say anythg..poyo,showing off,good,or wut so ever,cuz am not gonna give it a DAMN!,cuz i supposed to say wut i'm supposed to..I'allah,i hope when d same thg happened to u guys,good or bad,just remember 1 thg..turn to HIM,there's no other better place except HIM,who never fails u..)

i did remembered yerterday when i watched tain 3t online,1 thg dat he said have made me jumped into my memories which i have always seen it n listened to it..i bet,u guys too..*its firman Allah: its sound like this,*HE will never ever let down those who always hope for HIS's blessings.. and for dat,i thankful to HIM for HIS luv,n evrythg i had in this world..mom,pop,brothers,sisters, anyone n evrythg..evry single one of them..Alhamdulillah..i couldn't ask for more Allah...thank YOU.

today is monday,few more minutes,will change to tuesdays..hmm..2 days more preps for epidemiological cycle examinations..lots n lots of question dat must be review n study to..truely a bit pressure n tension..so i relieved my tension studying by watching "speed racer" movie..i've watched it before,but the gamba is blurred..tapi for today,nice n clear..there's some goodness or shall i say nilai murni dalam cite nie..honestly..i'm touched with it..

1.luckiness..wut wud u think about..? money, girlfrens, cars ..etc?and wut happened in the movie..they said,we are already a luckiest person on earth cuz we got a very great "family"which include,our real family n friends..n dats d truth..think again..,wud cud just happened if we dun have them...dats for u guys to figure out..

2.the love.. am very touched with d love show by speed (name of d hero)'s family,his brother,pop,mom,litel brothers,fren (sparky) n of course gurlfren (trixie..i guess..lupe lakname die..).Alhamdulillah,we got the same too rite..ooo..made me missed all of my family n friends..syukur sangat having u guys around..

3.n most important thg is..protect ur "family"..i mean family and friends..do wut ever possible actions u can to avoid them from any harm..

well,its not a small thing.. wut if u find urself in a position dat u holding people's pride or try to jage hati org? well,to do it..it need more than u got i think..cuz i've been thru it.. people did shouting at u,cursed u,say anythg they wanna at u,think bad,talk bad bout u..but..wut did i do..? two of d most precious person in my life, UTEH n UDE(my 3rd n 2nd kakak..not their real name)they did gave me two brilliant choices..

-one,u shout back at him or her who made u responsible for this n those u told u a bad ass,call their names,n curse'em..n STOP DOIN their "f***ing laundry"...

-another.. as mom always said..*sabala..itu sume rancangan Allah..1 hari nanti,org tau kebenaran...,hmmm typically mom...

n choice dat i've made..,i picked mom's choice n it have been d same thg which i've thought n decided..i walk away..pretending dat nothing happened,pretend dat i'm a really bad ass guy,heartbreaker,or wut so ever,am d 1 who responsible for evrythg...etc..etc... nicely put on urself salihin... in d other side,it really hurts a lot actually..but,wut can u do..for d sake of protecting sumthg u believed important not for u,but for other other people..?

hahahaha lol...wut? i cant hear u.. naah..am not playin' a role as HERO.. nope..dat never occur in my mind..if u still wanna think like dat,its up to u guys..wut am tryin' to say is,Allah itu maha berkuasa.. if its occur to u,I'Allah.. u feel d same too..u tryin' to deny,but it still coming straight to ur face..people sayin' u play HERO..d truth is..just us,ourself who knew it..

huuui..lots of things to study..well i need to stop..my 2nd abg,Andak(also not a real name),gonna kick my ass if i'm not pass this exam..he said he wud tell pop,dat i'm here not for studyin' but playin.. he's kinda d**k but,he's a great son and great brother...when it comes to kuliah from mom,n my sisters,they always said.."sungguhpun die sekolah tak tinggi,die tak pernah tinggi suare kat mak..".this the things i've always remembered...n am very2 careful when it comes to mom..in evrythg...i dun wana see her precious tears run down... And he,who also said n remind me,"pop keje kuat nak skola kan ko,belaja sungguh2..sape lagi nak tolong kuage kite,kalu tak family member sendri..?kan beruk..?!" ,memang kuang aja..panggil aku beruk.., "ko tu yg beruk...oo,taula ibu selalu sebot name andak..eksyen,..andak tu da la,kedekot,tangkai jering,taik idung masin!!".dat moment getting over n over,anywhere,when we together.., and its getting cute when mom n sis,plus pop inside d same car,or d same moment..wargh i missed that moment..

well..i'm off now..but b4 dat ..there's sumthg i need to share wt u guys..

1. jgn tinggal semayang,pray hard
2. have fun
3. do not hurt people
4. do not accept defeat..
5. strive to be happy..

p/s:jgn malas belaja,balaja skit,main banyak takpe....lol.janji belaja kan.. n sempena hari raye korban yg telah berlalu,ambillah ikhtibar,yg mane,dah banyak dah pengorbanan yg org lain dah buat kat kite,its just for us to see it,realized,n be thankful to them..